Tanith & Goliath

Saturday Night - visualise this. Its a good friends birthday and Craig and I are out at dinner to celebrate, but I'm not the one close enough to the birthday girl to know anyone and I smile politely at the guests as we are introduced.

Sitting with complete strangers brings out the chameleon in me. I'm almost trapped in a layered moment of dialogue with myself as I consider which characteristics of myself I wish to portray to these strangers. 

If it makes any sense to you, I'm still considering if I wanna ease into the conversation with an agreeable and timid persona or get straight to the unapologetically and unique person I am. Sometimes the latter which is my true personality is too much to take in, its not so much a facade is it is a strategy, a decision I come to depending on my mood and the type of people at the table. I choose peace.

A Mixed Bag

So I'm sitting at the table asking questions directed at the guests, typical things like their occupations, their area of residence and if they've eaten at this restaurant before. Some see it as an icebreaker but I'm was just inquisitive. 


Across from me a blonde bombshell dominates the conversation between flicks of her platinum tassles that flee over her shoulder. Her brother sits alongside her and doesn't say much but as the night progresses his comical facial expressions hit my funny bone hard, reducing me to tears as I cry on Craigs shoulder. 

To my right the oddest pair of colleagues and friends sit and chat between themselves. They are the strangest pair I've seen since Jen and I were introduced 9 years ago, two contrasting people with so much history between them that being friends is almost mandatory after such a long time. The one gent is a little taller than me, the other a gargantuan man who towers over my 5 foot 2 frame. He has a dry approach to life and a missing filter from his mouth. I believe in the good in everyone, sometimes though, its hard to recognise it at first sight.

The Challenger Rises

The conversation then turns to me as I question Blondie's Astrological predispositions, something I do more-so for interest sake than to pigeon hole people. I like to see if what I know of that sign is in fact true and applicable to the person sitting in front of me, so I question it. 

Goliath slaps his forehead in a very public display of disapproval and when I query his actions, he points to the tattoo on his wrist. It is the symbol for some scientific, theory based calculation that clearly inspired him at some stage of his life - that or a dare. If I recall its the Observer Effect which is essentially a theory relating to physics. 

According to Wikipedia, and my recollection of the conversation, this theory explains that "it is not possible to observe a system without changing the system, so the observer must be considered part of the system being observed." 

He is very proud of his tattoo and pleased that he has educated us all. I agreeably mention how his tattoo, my Astrological reference and the laws of Energy are similarly connected to my Esoteric beliefs. Goliath interjects with disapproval at my apparent confusion that the two may be interlinked and in that moment Goliath meets the David in me.

No Sword, Just Light

Energy healing and Esoteric principles versus 'tried and trusted scientific fact' turned our lighthearted banter into a full on debate. I'm not there to prove a point or enforce my beliefs on other people, but if the Observer Effect is anything to go by, we are essentially both right. 

Energy/atoms/molecules that are part of a system require the observer to be part of the system being observed and as such, changing the outcome of the system just by participating. Metaphysics works the same way, science and philosophy meet and in our existence we are all linked with the Universe around us. It is not a separation from existence, we are existence!

Traditionally the term science meant knowledge and Metaphysics (which is the basis of the 3 year Energy Healer Diploma I'm studying towards) is a combination of science and philosophy - the existence of man, space and time, cause and effect and possibility. It is the education of the science of man in conjunction with the natural laws and processes designed by God. If I've managed to confuse you, think Energy Healing, Chakra Balancing, Aura Cleansing, Past Lives and Soul Evolution. 

The Nonsense Of It All

For a brief moment I felt as if I was in the Truman Show, as if everything I stood for was being judged and ridiculed. What if my belief systems were so 'pie in the sky' that I sounded foolish, even to myself.

Just as I start doubting myself because of my lack of 'proven scientific fact' I recall every symbolic dream and premonition I've had in this life since childhood. I remember messages from passed over loved ones and detailed images from passed over strangers to me for friends and family of those I know or may have just met. All of these experiences have been accurate and well received.

I consider my personal journey, my own Angelic experiences and my love for nature and I'm certain, with a deep sense of knowing that I am in fact in tune, loved and gifted and if its means I'm labelled a freak or a dreamer then that's OK too. :P 

As for Goliath, well we landed up hugging each other goodbye, I think he had the last laugh as he lifted me into the air - sadly my back is suffering because of it but in the end, love wins.